just another pretty face....what makes you different?

living in LA, I feel like I'm living in the real valley of the dolls. I see perfection everywhere I go - perfect noses, perfect boobs, perfect workout clothes, perfect eaters, perfect everything. it can be a little overwhelming for a girl like me, a girl from a small town with a face and body that doesn't meat the traditional, generic "beauty" standards that our society has established.

I will say I have found my outer beauty in the form of bleach bottles, saline bags, fake hair, fake lashes, bleached teeth, tanned skin, and the entire MAC store on my face...I've done a great job of becoming an illusion of beauty, a face that society says is pretty.

as I was taking off my makeup tonight, I looked in the mirror and thought to myself, how many goals I have accomplished. today I did a photo shoot for a project that I have been developing on my own for the past few months. it has nothing to do with videos or hollywood, its an intellectual development that I'll be sharing with you all very soon. however, the photo shoot today was the final step of the process and I had to pat myself on the back for finishing this huge undertaking that I had no idea where to start just mere months back.

I looked in the mirror and thought to myself, what would happen if I went into a casting looking like this? perhaps, I wouldn't get the job but I began to think to myself about all the jobs I did book without looking like everyone else. my nose is wide, my eyes are spaced an astronomical amount apart, my body is considered plus size and my sense of style is not exactly off Rodeo Drive.

so why me? why have I been able to accomplish so many goals even when I'm full of self doubt from people telling me I'm too ugly, too fat, too tacky, etc?

I'll tell you why...I'm not just another pretty face. I like to LOOK pretty and portray pretty but my inner beauty shines through when I walk into a room or go on an audition. as soon as anyone starts having a conversation with me, the first thing they say to me, is well, you're quite different than what I expected. and I LOVE hearing this. I love surprising people with my quirks and attributes.

I don't type this blog out of conceit, I type it to challenge you to find something that makes you more than a pretty face. its good to feel beautiful but in a world full of beautiful faces, you need more to succeed.

walk with a strut, find confidence in your uniqueness. what others may find as distasteful or a set back, see it as a positive.

some people may think my weight holds me back but it doesn't. I'd love to lose weight but until I do, I see my curves as something that makes me stand out. I sat in a waiting room of twigs for my "modern family" audition and I had self doubt on overkill. as soon as I walked into the room, I tripped and fell on my heels as I was handing the casting director my headshot. everyone got up to see if I was okay and I told them I'd let them know as soon as I push my tits back in. and I pushed em in and they laughed and I got the part!

it was the confidence I had to make a joke after something that could be rather traumatizing. I think the same thing took effect when I tried out for America's Got Talent last year. I went to meet Howard Stern, fully expecting to be buzzed. can you imagine? going on national television only to KNOW you will be humiliated in front of your childhood idol and millions of other people watching?? my clip of AGT has over 50 million hits on youtube as of writing this.and I think why!? I wasn't the prettiest contestant and lord knows I wasn't the most talented nor was I the worst, so why did it catch on??? to this day, people stop me in the streets and say, "are you Trish like Fish from america's got talent"? a little dumb rhyme that I use to remember and remind people of names made me memorable enough for random people to stop me on the streets. and I was special enough to be one of only two contestants asked back for the AGT finale in New Jersey

so the moral of this blog post is be more than just a pretty face. a pretty girl is a dime a dozen these days thanks to all the beauty in a bottle solutions...be different, take chances, and go for the gold in unique-ness! 

the world has a million barbie dolls, but they only have one Trisha Paytas and the world only has one YOU!

trish