ugh. what is happening to me!?!?! where is my motivation?! my creativity?! my energy!?!? life is being drained from me and I don't understand why. between a recent breakup, an ex coming back wanting in my life, no work, and just an overall feeling of boredom, I just don't even recognize who I am right now.
I know what I need and that is something that'll INSPIRE me again. to get me motivated to work towards something. what is that something!?!
there was a song I heard in the mall the other day that I hadn't heard since it came out when I was a teenager but the lyrics go something like "I've got it all but I'm wasting it slowly, I go up, I go down and I feel emptier inside, tell me what is this thing, that I feel like I'm missing and why can't I, let it go?!" its called "more to life" but not sure who it is by... "theres gotta be more to life than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me"
anyway, it hit me....I'm still not sure what my purpose is in this wonderful life that God created for me. I am happy, I am content. but there's more that I could be doing. I was meant to live a great life but why am I not doing MORE, being MORE, giving MORE.
so here it is 4 o'clock in the afternoon, still in bed, have done nothing but eat a bowl of cereal, put up a video to piss people off, watched the beginning of gremlins and drowning my woes in twitter feeds from people I've never met.
do you ever get in these frumps!? I took a spontaneous trip out of state last week to hopefully kickstart some much needed inspiration but to no avail?! how do I get out of this rutt!?
advice is appreciated. because even though I like to think I have all the answers, I sadly don't.
what can I do to get motivated? hopefully in a month I'll be able to do a follow up to MOTIVATE YOU. pay it forward.