this blog was inspired by a follower of mine on twitter, a beautiful girl who tweeted me a picture of her self harm wounds healing. her exact tweet was "I am stopping for you and they're starting to heal. Youre such an inspiration to me Trisha, thank you"
now I'm writing this blog because I was literally in tears from reading her tweet and seeing her cuts. I'm not in tears because I helped her but more because she did that to herself thinking she wasn't good enough, or deserving enough, of love, life or whatever issues she is/was dealing with.
I spent some time looking at her twitter, this girl looks happy, is absolutely stunning, and it just broke my heart for her that she would want to do that to herself. the bright side, she has STOPPED cutting and that means so much to me. her wounds are healing but that means so is she as a person. that brought even more tears to my eyes.
I'm not sure how specifically I helped her but I'm so glad I could and she inspired me to write this blog to maybe help others even if thats just 1 other....
and I met another girl at my book signing in Toronto back in August who had a similar story. again, I won't say names or go into specifics but she was a former cutter who also took a little time in knowing that she was worthy of AMAZING things.
know this......EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US ON EARTH ARE HERE FOR A REASON. there are NO accidents in Gods world. there are no coincidences.
YOU WERE MEANT TO LIVE AN EXTRAORDINARY LIFE.
look, I've never been suicidal nor have I self harmed, so I can't pretend to know what you're feeling. but I have been severely depressed in life, I've been on medications for depression, I've self medicated with drugs in the past, so I know what low feels like. I was a prostitute for 3 years of my life, ended up in the hospital twice from drugs, my body has been used and abused, I've never been one to have alot of friends, no genuine boyfriends, just people who want want want and take take take from me.
but you know what kept ME going? was knowing I was put on this earth for a reason. I knew in my heart, I was meant to do something great with my life. that these dark times were just temporary, I couldn't see the light but I had FAITH that it was there.....and I'm telling you once you catch a glimpse of that light, every struggle you've had will be worth it and you'll understand WHY. you may not understand it right now but you will, I promise.
we all have our crosses to bare in this world. Jesus carried the cross he was crucified on, don't forget that.
and don't let anyone tell you your problems are insignificant. just because there are kids actually starving in Africa or dying of aids, doesn't make your problems any less tough or difficult. cope with them in a healthy way. talk to adults, seek counseling, going to church helped me tremendously, meditate, find an activity you enjoy doing.....whatever it is, you will get through.
you have to put up with a little rain if you want to see the rainbow
WHAT DOESN'T KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONGER!!!!!!!!
if you are currently self harming....PLEASE STOP. if you feel nobody loves you or wants you, they do. maybe somebody is out there waiting to give you unconditional love you don't feel you currently have. please have patience. nothing is more selfish than taking your own life. suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. the people you leave behind will be devastated, its not fair when so many people love you, even if you don't realize it. know that I love you and God loves you. I pray for every single one of you each night. I do. when I say my prayers, I pray that the people who read this blog, follow me on social media, helped me achieve this happiness I'm living now will find the same happiness in their lives. and I KNOW God will provide that for you.
happiness is easy to find if you realize what happiness is.
its not about being the prettiest, the skinniest, the most popular, the richest....no. happiness is a choice you make everyday. even in my current state of living my dreams, I've had problems and headaches, everything from lawsuits to stalking but you know what, I don't let that get me down either.....I wake up EVERY SINGLE MORNING and say Trish, you're up another day, thank the Lord for that by praying and doing something positive with it.
PLEASE STOP CUTTING. PLEASE. YOU ARE WORTHY OF EVERYTHING YOU WANT AND DESIRE IN THIS LIFE. EVERYTHING YOU HAVE, EVERYTHING YOU WILL HAVE ----- YOU DESERVE IT.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
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