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Monday, January 13, 2014

a different kind of Barbie


"I always wanted to be Malibu Barbie...but God didn't quite create me that way so I turned into my own kind of barbie, my favorite kind... a lil Trish Doll" -me

so I was going through my candids of a photo shoot I had last week for the cover of my next book and I was looking at all the untouched random iphone photos and wanted to post some but I thought, "mmm, my arm looks huge and my legs look pudgy, my butt is too wide and not enough of a bubble, people are gonna say I have cankles, my bra is showing, wish I knew how to photoshopp my personal pics, etc etc etc"

then I relooked at em this morning and I saw so much beauty in these pictures. I saw a girl who was having fun living out her dream of not only accomplishing a finished third novel but getting to be the cover model for it in her backyard in a Southern California beach city which is literally the sand at my doorstep. I saw this girl who yeah, had a little bit of fat on her but that fat meant she could now afford to eat on her own when in the past she had to either starve or rely on men to get her food. I looked at this picture and saw legs that weren't skinny but strong, these legs have walked me out, nay, ran me out of some dangerous situations. and mostly I saw a smile that showed how happy I truly am in life right now regardless of what people think of my size, my fashion, my hair, my life, my choices....I had a legitimate genuine smile and some of these poses, I don't think alot of girls would be able to do because they don't believe they are sexy. this is the pose of a girl who KNOWS she is sexy and its taken me 25 years to be fully aware of my SEXY and fully able to flaunt it with no apologies and no photoshopp!!!

I just wanted to share this because I know alot of us curvy girls struggle with "should we lose weight? should we not?" - at the end of the day, its your decision and its whatever makes you happy. do you wanna feel better? do you wanna look better? do you think losing weight will help with that? THEN DO IT. but don't forget to look at yourself right now and appreciate all that has gone into that body you have today...the stress you had to endure, the heartache you've experienced, the happiness you've celebrated....the body you're in today has quite the story. so while you may want to create a new beginning or not, never forget or be ashamed of the story in which you've already written :) 

xo 

Trish

23 comments:

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    1. I agree, she isn't afraid of putting herself out there. She has been through so much, and believe me I can relate to her life and what she's been through. I give her props for staying strong, and believing and pushing through and finding a way always. I gave up. So she inspires me. Just watching her smile, and being goofy or crazy makes me laugh inside, because I don't feel alone. She is fun, and I hope she finds the LOVE she desires and wants so badly. Everyone deserves love even the worst criminals out there because if they had it maybe they wouldn't be so bad. I thank you TRISH for helping get through days I didn't think I could get past. xoxoxo

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  2. this is such a good post. I say as long as youre happy with yourself who cares what others think. Do want makes you feel comfortable. xx

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  3. never let the haters get to you. you know were here for you always.

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  4. I love you trish, you are so beautiful and im glad you can see that <3 beautiful post!

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  5. Oh my, I really love you, and I LOVE when you do videos talking about slefsteem of both young and elder women.You are truly beautiful and I am so glad that there IS someone who can say that, proudly, with confidence. But, that is the problem with mostly teenagers these days. Talk about a thigh gap, THEY ALL WANT IT. But why? Do you have to have one to be sexy and confident? I could go on and on, but you're better at it then me. I love when you do those kind of videos to help. I really think you've helped a lot of girls overcome their appearance. What ever shape or size they are. I really hope you will read this and hopefully reply or do one of those kind of videos again? Maybe? Boost up the confidence? It personaly really helped, you've learned me not to care what other people think. I'm 5'7 weigh 109Ibs but I still sometimes get unsecured with questions like 'Am I skinny enough?' But when you do those kind of videos, it really makes me believe that I'm beautiful and sexy 'cause I am a woman, a female wich means ALL WOMEN ARE SEXY, but we all need some kind of confidence boosting, and you my darling are the most inspiring person ever and you can really make and other person feel better about themselves and that's what I love about you! Take care, kissies from your little fishie! xo

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  6. Good for you trish, keep that positive mind it will take you far. God bless.

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  7. trish you are such an inspiration to me. i'm 18, and all my life i've struggled with my weight, being called fat and ugly, all sorts of bullying. i decided a few days after new years that i was going to go on a diet and lose 20 lbs. yesterday i was feeling fat; i was crying in my boyfriend's arms about how i hated my body and he told me that i look beautiful no matter what, whether i stay how i am or if i decide to lose weight, and a lot of other encouraging things, but they didn't really help. when i went home, i saw your new video about plus sized disney princesses, and it made me happy, and it made me feel better about myself. your videos about body encouragement always seem to do that, and for that, i can't thank you enough, trish. you are such a huge inspiration to me and probably many other girls and boys. i even used a quote you said in one of your older videos as my yearbook quote last year when i graduated high school. "don't dull yourself to fit in, just find where you can shine the best." to this day, that is my favorite quote. thank you, trisha, for everything. love, a little baby fishy :*

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  8. God didn't make you're body like that, you did. By over eating. Just because you're fat doesn't mean you have more curves. And don't say "us curvy girls" because last time I checked we all have curves , not just the fat ones. I agree with the whole love your body thing but don't categorize your size as the 'curvier" one or the "curvy" ones.

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    1. You guys are so uneducated. Some people become over weight due to their genetic. Someone can't help if that is how their body was made especially if they naturally have a slow metabolism.

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  9. ''I saw this girl who yeah, had a little bit of fat on her but that fat meant she could now afford to eat on her own when in the past she had to either starve or rely on men to get her food. I looked at this picture and saw legs that weren't skinny but strong, these legs have walked me out, nay, ran me out of some dangerous situations.'' 1 Eating on your own does not mean you will become fat, what you eat determines how fat you will become if you continue on that diet and also your activity level. 2 Sounds like you are skinny shaming by you saying, ''I looked at this picture and saw legs that weren't skinny but strong...'' which sounds like you are implying that 'skinny legs' cannot be strong. Which is not true if you believe that simple minded reasoning. 3 God did not make you look any way, your mother and father's DNA made you THIS way, not an imaginary man in the clouds, I mean if you believe that, why would 'God' make someone mentally impaired and incapable and someone else fully capable...or if you want to say God made this or that happen in your life why did he 'make' a girl get raped by her father...makes no sense, if God were to grace His ever generous hands across someone, I think He would to someone more deserving of help, and not someone who lives in the USA and is privileged beyond her knowing. Don't blame your 'God' you believe to exist for your problem and issues with yourself, you do not live in the passenger seat to your life, you are in control and capable of changing whatever you want, you decide how to look at things in your life that you have done in the past as well as what you will do in the future. If you use God to cope with your problems, I think you need to realize what 1 I said above about you being in control of your actions, and 2 owning up to what you have done and not play victim. Anyways, just wanted to touch on a few things, peace out.

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    1. Oh geez. Give her a break. She's not skinny-shaming. She's saying that she is proud of her legs because they are strong, instead of maybe a girl struggling with body issues and that has led her to have weak legs. And please respect other people's beliefs for once. You do you and she'll do her. Lighten up, stop being so miserable. I feel so sorry for you. Please find some peace in your life.

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    2. Now you yourself, are skinny shaming, don't assume a woman is struggling with her weight by being thin thus having ''weak legs.'' There is a way to be happy with yourself without having to put down others in order to feel at peace, whether it is indirectly or directly, shaming is shaming. She could have said she was proud of her ''strong legs,'' taking her word for it that they are strong doesn't bother me one bit, but she did shame those with legs not layered fat rather lean muscle. You have no way of knowing whether legs are weak do to their size. I am not being rude one bit, sorry you're reading my message in the wrong tone and sorry you are so judgmental to assume that I am miserable, which I am not. I am not shaming her for believing in God, rather telling her my opinion, and encouraging her not to pull the victim card which she does often. Bye now. :)

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  10. Good for you <3 you look gorgeous girl!! <3

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  11. Made me cry a little bit :') Not really cry,
    more like tear up a bit. This was so touching!
    You go girl! Rock what YOU gave yourself! YOU
    worked hard, no one can judge you cause they
    don't do a thing for you! At the end of the day,
    YOU'RE the one that matters to you, YOU'RE
    the one that's working hard, YOU'RE the one
    that needs to love yourself and need YOU'RE
    own approval. You're the only one you need
    answer to. Judgemental people, you don't need
    them! You're your own girl. You're your own Barbie.
    You're your own Trish. Carry on!

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  12. I luv you trisha your an Amazing person stay positive regardless of what the haters say keep doing you sweety remember to always have (F.I.G)Faith In God Always xoxo from the boogie down bronx

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  13. you said '' I always wanted to be Malibu Barbie...but God didn't quite create me that way so I turned into my own kind of barbie, my favorite kind... a lil Trish Doll'' stop blaming god for your body problems and take your fat ass to the gym!

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  14. I love the pose, the colour of your dress and your curves, your hair, and your playful facial expression. You look fabulous!

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